I was just thinking (pretty awesome, eh?), and you know what? I am SO NOT a morning person. Just the opposite, I'm a night owl. I like the outdoors in the morning (I just love to see the sunrise) but mornings in general are just slow for me.....it's when I am tired the most.

I never have enjoyed the alarm clock (and all it's annoyance) either, waking me up from deep sleep. It's weird how I have always had a love-hate relationship with my alarm clock. Before I go to bed, I am relying on the stupid thing to save me from over sleeping, trusting it, and depending on it. But in a short 6-8 hours later when it demands me to get up, I want to throw that thing across the room and slam it into the wall until it breaks in two. Ok not that dramatic, but I cut it off as quickly as possible.

Anyway, it's hard go to bed late and then get up early in the mornings (especially after summer break). But I just can't go to bed early! It just doesn't work that way with me at all. I don't start getting tired until midnight. And then it's like extra hard to wake up at 6 in the morning.

I guess it's just that first week of school, I'll probably get in the swing of things soon.

This is random, but I'm watching this really weird show on tv called "Big". These people just built a giant wood cuckoo clock that is 12 feet tall. Whatever. lol.

You know what else about myself I was just thinking about? I don't feel comfortable being around large groups of people that I don't know. I feel very uncomfortable, and uneasy. I wish it wasn't that way, honestly. Sometimes I just want to avoid being social at all. But there are times when I do feel like being a social.....I wouldn't say butterfly, maybe a moth? I don't know lol, that didn't make much sense. Usually in situations like that, after a while I'll start warming up to people. But it's hard, because shy people (I wouldn't really say I'm shy, just a little standoffish at times) come off as seeming like they are cold, rude, and even stuck up. Whenever I feel distant and reserved, what I do is try to stop thinking about myself because I know that is what it all boils down to. It's that feeling of paranoia that everyone is looking at you and waiting for you to mess up or something. I pray God will give me a servant's heart so that I will not be thinking of myself. Because a servant puts others before himself, there is no time to be thinking of self, aka: self-consciousness. I do believe it's definitely something God is teaching me.

Well, it is 11:15pm. I think maybe I am starting to get tired. Ah I should have cleaned my room, it looks like a tornado did a few laps in there. It's bad. Oh well, looks like I'll have to labor on Labor Day now.

Au revoir!

P.S. Now there is this show on that says you can tell a lot about a person just by the way they walk (like finding a terrorist! Yes, that's what they said)! This channel HDTH (High Definition Theater) has some different shows.

But I must go to bed now!!!!

Out.